Sheltered inconsiderate and rude

Im so over everyone at this school, Im so over everything at this school, Im so over LA traffic, Im so over being pushed around, Im so over going through the motions, Im so over WAITING, Im so over people who can't show appreciation, Im so over over-reactions, Im so over fake bitches, Im so over being looked down on, Im so over being ignored, Im so over the numbers in my bank account, Im so over Oceanography, Im so over low self esteem, Im so over being busy, Im so over this plaaace.

Today was fine, tonight was whatever, but Im in such a bad mood that if I go into details Ill lose some friends.
I am just soo over this place.

I want to go hooooooome. I want to be around people who ACTUALLY care, and respect each other, and have interesting things to do and say. People who get along and can have real conversations and can relate to each other and learn from each other. I mean is that too much to ask, really?

I miss Javi and Alyssa and Sara and my brother and the Elizas and Kyle and Charles, people who dont find it such a huge burden to listen to what I have to say, people who support me.

And this blog is SOO selfish, I understand that. But we all need a support system. We all need to be accepted and loved for who we are not who everyone wants us to be. Not finding that can turn even the best places and experiences into bad ones.
Some days I really dont think Ive found that here. Some days its fine. We do have a lot of fun together. Some days we all really connect, some days everyone gets along. But usually someone gets rubbed the wrong way. And if the other girls are rubbed the wrong way, you better clear a wide path and keep away, but not the slightest consideration is given towards me. I get trampled on every day and Im tiiiired.

Its not like this every day of course, and Idk there's always a chance Im over-reacting too, but I just am sooo annoyed right nowww.



I need a Javi hug, but I dont get to see him for like 10 more days =( And he's already asleep so no phone call =/ Haha.


Ok whatever I just need to cool off, it truly isnt a big deal. Im just tired of it.

(Its because Im spoiled and I lived a happy cushiony life where everyone was pleasant and kind until I moved to TO) Rawr.


Whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
I love you strange people who read this <333>