Expired

Heyyyya guys who follow me, Im not doing this blog anymore, just for your infooo
You may find me on kjrstinsjourney.blogspot, its much more interesting than this one and less whiney.

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And this is a picture of me taking over the world. BYAAA!!

I wish I cooooould..

drop out of school and just travel, taking pictures and writing and drawing and singing.
Why cant I just do that?? =)


This trip has been amazing so far.
Herrrre are some of my favorite pictures if you're interested:

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My new favorite place:

Duomo, Milan, Italy =)

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Nothing Stops A Bullet Like a Job

Sooooooooo.

This weekend was awesome.

Early early friday morning, I left for LA to learn about gangs with a group of 12 other CLU students for a retreat called the Urban Exchange!

I was soo nervous the most of first day because I was on the planning committee and we were all stressed out about everything going according to plan, BUTTTT, it went reeeally really well!!

Friday we did ice breakers and had a short lecture from a professor who has a lot of experience with gangs. And then we drove to Home Boy Industries in LA. Its a rehabilitation center. And its right by China Town, that was cool.

They have awesome services there and its all free! If you go to them and say "hey sooooo, I want out of my gang..." they'll get you a job, free tattoo removal, child care, GED programs, counselors, pastors, job training, food, shelter, protection, its awesome. This guy Gus told us his whole story after he gave us a tour while we ate bommmb tacos from their restaurant. He got shot a bunch if times and had to have one of his legs amputated =/
He was really chill though, he told us about his family and his childhood and his neighborhood.

The whole experience was just mind blowing because it's just the norm for them, I couldnt believe it.
The scariest thing to me was something he said. We asked him if he wanted revenge on the guy who put him in a coma and shot him in the leg and he says soo casually
"Oh he's dead." and we didnt say anything for a second and he said "I knew my homies would take care of it."
That shooock me I dont know why.

After Home Boys we went to the church we slept at and did some learning activities. Which I planned. Which was scary. But went really well =)
And we cooked and explored the creepy church and played janga and hung oout.
And then we watched a movie about MS13 and went to sleep. Wooh.


Sunday morning we all had breakfast and then went to a park down the street to hear one of our group members, Chris, tell his story. Fascinating. I mean I couldnt even summarize the whole thing. This is just a guy who gets inspired and straight up does things. He was involved with gangs all his life, his parents got him drinking as a toddler, he did drugs and later ran drugs for all the major shot callers in LA. He never affiliated with a specific gang but he hung out mostly with the Mexican Mafia and a local biker gang. He doesnt remember exactly when but between ages 15-17 he drew out a series of flame tattoos which he got all over his body. He also has a ton of gang symbols and letters, coy fish, slogans, bike chains, pin-up girls, just tonnns. He's literally covered. Including mustache. Wooh. So when he's 17 he goes to prison. Continues to run drugs inside. But then later decides he wants out.
So he literally just does it. He stops gang banging. He stops doing drugs. He gets his GED. When he gets out of prison he goes to culinary school, works his way up the later, works with Wolfgang Puck, then moves to the Philippians and works for the president. Crazyyy. Then he sees a starving girl and all the sudden decides he wants to help people and make a difference in the world. So he just goes out and does it!
Now he's at CLU getting a degree in religion and political science. And he's going into the navy. And he's getting all his tattoos removed and he wants to be a lawyer someday he says. Maybe.
And this kid dropped out of school in 6th grade. Wasnt sober for a day in his life until he was 17. And he's sharing his story, working with rehabilitation, studying legislature, trying to make a change.
Its like wooow... what have I done with my life.
We were all so inspired!!
After that, we went to an organization called Project Cry No More. It was founded by this beautiful strong amazing woman Vicky who's son was killed by gang members. And its all women who's kids were murdered by gangs. We met with a panel of 3 women in the organization and one ex gang member who is now a mentor to kids. The ex gang member actually founded a prominent Compton gang and was then in prison for 30 years for a bunch of counts of murder. And the mothers shared their stories too, and it was really emotional.
Their organization mentors a bunch of kids too, they are so awesome.

Thennnn after being lost all over LA for like an hour, we went to Rosco's! Where chicken on waffles is actualllyyyyy really ridiculously delicious!!

Likkkkkke seriously. Soo goodddd. It was really fun =)
And this group of people was kind of heckling us or whatever and looking at us weirdly and Chris turned around and made a face at them and they totally stopped it was so cool.

Sooooooooooo! It all went really well! Im so glad Pastor Melissa made me be on the committee. Hahaha. No really though. It was so awesome, I learned so much. And I could write foreverrr but Im already babbling!!

My whole weekend was fantastic =)

When I got home from LA I hung out with the girlllllls =) It had been way too long sense we just had a normal hang out. We just went to World Market and BJs and then sat around talking and painted our nails. Mine are green. Quite exciting.

Then sunday morning I woke upppp and my mama and dad and Andrew came annnnddddd they brought my sweet Javiiii with themmm, it was the best thing everrr!
I had a choir concert and it was the coolest thing to see them out in the crowd. Esp. Javi who I miss way too much all of the tiiiiiiiiime!!
It was such a good day =) I love my familyyyy!!

SO!
that is my wonderful weekend!
Thank you for reading this you weirdyyyyyyy

Looooooooooooooooove KJ

No Subject:

There's no way to catch you up... I went to Huntington Beach with my family and then home for a week for Spring Break, and it was completely and wonderfully fantastic. The best week Ive had in monnnnntttths. Every single day was full of all the love and smiles I miss the most, and I got to see allllll my favorite people.
There were a bunch of high lights but Im sure if youre reading this you already know themmm... =D
AHHHHHHH succch an amazing week I cant even tell you!!

But anyway moving onnnn, getting back in the habit where I write about my day.

Today was a good day. As was yesterday and the day before.
Its again fallen back into the "same old same old" and thatttttt, you should know, is my LEAST favorite thing EVER. I hate doing the same thing every day and I hate monotony.
But today was alright.
I woke up fairly early (another least favorite thing of mine) and went to Bfast with my Shelby. We just realized that in 5 weeks we're done with school, and we wont see each other for a year and a half!! I wont see Shelby again until the beginning of my senior year in college. That is if Im even still at this school!
Its weird how things like that sneak up on you. The whole study abroad thing too, its so close I cant even believe it! And in 5 weeks I will be in ITALY!! =) And in 8 weeks I will be HOMMMME having the best summer of my liiiiife with the greatest people I will ever know =)
Oh also, today was A Day Without Shoes, to support Tom's Shoes and awareness of difficulties that people in other countries face because of lack of resources (and shooooes! could you imagine not having any shoes??)
So that was fun. I stepped on a couple of painful things and the pavement was hot but it was actually kind of fun, it made my day better for some reason. Maybe bc I felt more free or something. And a bunch of people in choir werent wearing any either it was fun.
Um thennnnn Idk, I went to class and we talked about Revelation and all this awesome symbolism and crazy stuff, it might be my new favorite book of the good ol' Bibe.

Now Im at work. Thrilling. As always.
Nicole and I spent a whole hour google-ing women with afros and bald heads. Because I desperately want one of the two. I wisssh I could pull it off, how cool would that be!! Or dreadlocks! I am seriously considering dreadlocks, but my mom and roommates and best friend all said they would shave my head in my sleep. But hey maybe that would be cool too.
Jk. Shaved head is a no go. But I wish. And if I had a fro Id just look like my mom. Oh waaait. I already do.


Anyway that is my life. And I am currently very bored. School is boring. Thousand Oaks is boring. Im busy but I feel unattached and I dont really care about very much that's going on here.
I am excited for next weekend though, Im part of a planning committee for this group that is going to LA to learn about gangs and rehabilitation and that is gonna be really really cool. And then there's a choir concert and Im really hoping my Javi can come see meeeeeeeee. I miss him already.
I miss all of you already!!

To every single person I saw in the last 2 weeks: thank you so mucccch for such an amazing spring break and thank you for brightening my life, I love you so muccch!!

No trespassing

TODAY has been beautiful.

It had the worrrst start. I woke up early to study for my voice midterm, and I mean really, who likes to wake up early? I love my voice lesson but it's only one credit and a lot to memorize on top of the 20 other songs I have between two choirs, so lets just say, I wasn't ready. But it went okay. I managed to somehow get the words out and make coherent french sentences. Si mes vers ont eu des ailes....Then I went to Oceans... WOOOH... (Plankton from Spongebob is classified as a Copepod, who knew?)
What really made my morning bad was just some disappointing news that I won't be able to see my boyfriend tomorrow, we were planning on meeting at the Getty. I wont get to see him for like a trillion more dayyyyyssss (next tuesday! Haha!) Waaaaahhh !!!
It's hard being away from home, its hard missing people, "long distance" (even if it's only 2 hours) is hard.

That's not to say that we can't do it, because we can, we are and we will. But its just hard. I'm just sooo ready for spring breeeeak AHHHHH !!!

What turned today around was meeting with the campus pastor, and just talking. About everything, but with no direction, just taaalking. She's really awesome, and it was just what I needed.
Then while I was walking back to my room I noticed what a nice day it was outside (how easily we overlook these things and take them for granted, right?) and I thought hey maybe Id like to stay outside today.
Wednesdays are really cool for me because I have a 4 hour break in between classes. Haahaha.

SO I put on tennis shoes and decided to venture out farrrr beyond the confines of West Residence Hall, into the hills, up to (dun dun dunnnnnnnn.....) THE CROSS!!(Its actually part of CLU property and its like a 30 minute walk.. hike? but it's really cool, it's up on the hill with the CLU rocks, which are currently painted a hideous yellow color)
Im so glad I went today. I was like... birds? Lizard?? Flowers?? Wind??? Air???? What is all thisss????
And it was beauuutifullllll up there. I used to go a lot last year, just as a work out kind of and then I would run back down, but I always stopped at the cross. But today I prayed a little bit and I reflected. And it was gooooooood.
It was so awesome to just sit and clear my head and watch some birds fly around and look at the view.
Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God" I just needed a quiet reminder like that =D

I also found a new path! I mean I had seen it before but I never walked that way, so I went up therrrre, I decided I wanted to go to the highest point on the next hill. Soo I headed that way.

There were a bunch of cacti, it kind of looked like the thicket of thorns that Simba falls into... yeaknow?

I walked until I found a "No trespassing" sign...

Then I stepped over it and trekked onward.

And I was glad I did that, hahahaa. Its not really important enough to make it my title but uh yeeeah, Im keeping it.

I want to go to Malibu Creek State Park soooon, maybe next time Sara and Jav come see mee! Yes??

Anyway then the rest of my day was normalllll. I went to choir and work and now Im watching a movie. I CANT WAIT TILL SPRING BREAKKKKKKK, come quiiiiiiick, thaanks!!!

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NYYOU

Crystal Diamond Ruby

Today was a good day toooo. I would rather be home, but what can you do?

My roommate and I went to a play called the Most Massive Woman Wins, and it was SOO GOOODDD!!! It was all about body image and empowerment! My friend Storie was in it and she did sooo well, she was soo goood!! There was a part they were all in their underwear and I was so proud of her for being up there. Freaking goooodddd duuudddde. I cried! HAHA! Every girl in the whole place did Im sure, it was so so good. Just about like self esteem and stuff and things we alllllll struggle with. 

Um alsooo today, Cameron drew this picture at work. He was just drawing it and it turned out to look JUST like my chemistry teacher from high school! Hahaaaa!!

OK thats all goodnight!!

Life was good today

I forgot to blog last night, oooops!!
Buttttt ummm.. yeah! Yesterday was a pretty good day!

My Ocean's class had to go to the Long Beach Aquarium on a field trip, so 

my roommate, her cousin, our friend from class and I decided to go to 

the beach after. That was really funnn!! We layed out for a long time and walked down the beach,  and I swam. It was soo nice out too it was really awesome. And thennnnn sense I drove and  I paid for gas I was like weee should go to Huntington and visit my grandparents! It was only about 10 minutes away, so that worked out really well. It was good to see themmm!!! They looked a lottt better than last time I saw them. My grampa has parkinsense and my grandma takes care of him but she recently broke her back so its been hard on them. They have a caretaker living with them though so that's good. 

Im really glad they dont live in a retirement home. Or any kind of nursing home.
I work at a nursing home. Mmm.. no. Don't let your people live there, Im serious. Especially especially memory care. Just a warning. Hahh.
But anyway they looked a lot better, and Im gonna see them this weekend too with the rest of my family. Weeeh!

Anyway that was yesterday. Im getting in a better mood but still not a good one. Im so emo, but I really just want to go home.

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Self fulfilling prophecy

This morning I vowed to have a better day. SO. Today was a good day.

We had a quiz in Oceans and I hate Oceans, it is quiiiiite miserable. I dont know anything about the ocean, or tides, or tectonic plates... eh.

And I straightened my hair today for the first time in monnnths! Its long! I had no idea! HAH!

Tonight was pretty fun, we went to Geisha House for dinner in Hollywood with my roommate's cousin from Rhode Island =)It was fun, I love Hollywood, I love urban paces like that. I love the city and the lights and the people watching!!
The coolest thing about today was that I got to see another old friennnd =) That really turned my night around. Because before I was annoyed with traffic and people and uh.. stuff... yeah.
So I was like JOHN! Do you still live in Hollywooood?? And he dooooes, yay! And so we met up after dinner and it was soooo nice to just talk and catch uppp. Ahhh!! I love every single person from my high school seriously. You should just know this. I have the best friends ever ever everrrr. And it made me homesick, but also really happy. He's doing so well too and he's graduating tomorrow and he's HAPPY which is really cool. I love to see people just doing what they want to do and really getting the most out of life. Its awesome. He's cool.

Now Im just haaaangin out in the dorm. Kbell and I were watching a piece on Tyra about these enormously obesse women who want to be bigger and uhh.. that was weird... Im a little disturbed. But yeeeah.
That is my friday for youuu.


Also, tuition went up for next year (won't apply to me until after Egypt but still), and I just made another payment for Italy, and I dont get paid till next week, and I have 30 something dollars in my bank account! AH! And Im always really stressed out about money, and I would like it if one day I would either stop caring or have enough to not worry about it. Thankssss.

I cant wait for Javi to call me tonight =), then he will open my package I sent =), then I can go to sleeeeep, then I will wake up and it will be one day closer to spring break, which is gonna be awesome. (I mean I have to work, and so does everyone else, and I wont be home the whole time, but at least I wont be herrrre) And Ill be with all my favorite people =)

And all my favorite people are these people by the way:

Truly madly deeply seriously, I love these four people more than

 anyone and everyone on the planet besides my parents and my brother. Loves of my liiiiiiife, I tell youuuu!! =D

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Sheltered inconsiderate and rude

Im so over everyone at this school, Im so over everything at this school, Im so over LA traffic, Im so over being pushed around, Im so over going through the motions, Im so over WAITING, Im so over people who can't show appreciation, Im so over over-reactions, Im so over fake bitches, Im so over being looked down on, Im so over being ignored, Im so over the numbers in my bank account, Im so over Oceanography, Im so over low self esteem, Im so over being busy, Im so over this plaaace.

Today was fine, tonight was whatever, but Im in such a bad mood that if I go into details Ill lose some friends.
I am just soo over this place.

I want to go hooooooome. I want to be around people who ACTUALLY care, and respect each other, and have interesting things to do and say. People who get along and can have real conversations and can relate to each other and learn from each other. I mean is that too much to ask, really?

I miss Javi and Alyssa and Sara and my brother and the Elizas and Kyle and Charles, people who dont find it such a huge burden to listen to what I have to say, people who support me.

And this blog is SOO selfish, I understand that. But we all need a support system. We all need to be accepted and loved for who we are not who everyone wants us to be. Not finding that can turn even the best places and experiences into bad ones.
Some days I really dont think Ive found that here. Some days its fine. We do have a lot of fun together. Some days we all really connect, some days everyone gets along. But usually someone gets rubbed the wrong way. And if the other girls are rubbed the wrong way, you better clear a wide path and keep away, but not the slightest consideration is given towards me. I get trampled on every day and Im tiiiired.

Its not like this every day of course, and Idk there's always a chance Im over-reacting too, but I just am sooo annoyed right nowww.



I need a Javi hug, but I dont get to see him for like 10 more days =( And he's already asleep so no phone call =/ Haha.


Ok whatever I just need to cool off, it truly isnt a big deal. Im just tired of it.

(Its because Im spoiled and I lived a happy cushiony life where everyone was pleasant and kind until I moved to TO) Rawr.


Whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
I love you strange people who read this <333>

Home is where the heart is !!

Wellllll there ya gooo =))

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I was planning on a real blog today but the weirdest wave of tired just hit me so I think I might just try and catch it while its here.
Today was a really nice day dispite its business. Im trying to do more "me" things so I can be less stressed out and enjoy my time here more, so today I took my book up to the top of the stands at the football field and enjoyed the gorgeous weather =)
That was the highlight of my day, besiiiiiiiiiiides of course the amazing texts my Javi sends me. Miss him =/ Miss home.

Love you love you love you goodnight !!



(This has nothing to do with anything, buttttt I want ittt ^)

Sunny days

I looove rainy days. I love the rain in general. I grew up with constant showers and rain storms, it holds such awesome memories for me, and Id definitely take it over the 105 degree weather we get at home in July.
BUT today was the first beautiful sunny day in a while, and thooose, well those are wonderful too.
Campus transformed today. Everyone was wearing dresses and tank tops and shorts. People were eating their lunches outside. There were more joggers and people walking dogs through campus. I saw the most beautiful duck in the stream through the park, and plenty of bunnies everywhere. And everyone seemed more smiley and wavey (yes those are the grammatically correct terms)
It was a nice day =)

I wasn't happy when it started. I was tired (thankkkks daylight savings!!) and some people I ran into in the earlier hours of the day were a little less than cheery.
I started today out the wrong way, but Im glad it turned around.
I woke up and immediately started my "I dont want to be here. I want to go home. Im tired. I dont want to do this. Why do I have a practical tomorrow? Why is my Italy payment due? Why cant I go home this weekend? Why do I have to be 2 hours away from everyone? Why am I heeeeere??"
That's kind of been the usual lately, I hate to admit it =/ Im not being myself when Im here, and I need to fix that!!

But the day got a lot better as it went on. My drawing class got to take an excursion outside to draw in the park. It was sooo beautiful! And my arms got some sun (I need it!!) Choir got out early today, which is always nice. I mean I love it so muccch but a break is always nice.
Also, I gave our friend Andrew violin lessons today!! He's one of those "I wish I played something. OH! Ill buy a violin" type people. Must be nice right? Hahahaa. So we learned Hot Crossed Buns and Marry Had a Little Lamb today. And all about tuning and posture. Wooooh.
It was really fun actually, it reminded me of when I used to give Charles voice lessons. OMG. Haaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh...... I miss the old days sometiiiimes!!

I guess I did a lot today but I dont feel like it because I still have a lot left to do... oops...
Whatever EFFFFFF college, I have such bad Spring Fever AHHH!!!

Also, going off of Sara's perfectly articulated side note, if you read this, could you maybe comment or something orrrr stop being a creeper?? kthannnnks.

ALSO.
Im in love. The end.

This is so old but chyeeea... <33333333

Blarrrgggggg

Today I drove a lot. Bakersfield- T.O.- Pasadena- T.O.
I woke up at 6 but it was really 5 because of Daylight savings.... woooh..
But I actually had a really good day! We celebrated my grandma's 88th birthday with some of my family. One of my mom's sisters and one of her brothers and on of my cousins, it was nice. Im always really excited when everyone is civil. Hahah!!
My grandma is SO cool though seriously. She wears high heals everyday. And has an awesome accent. And is a Gthugggg pretty much. She's older than the hills!!!

Yesterday was loooovely toooo =) I went shopping with my mama, then I got to hang out with my Boooo for a while and he came over for dinner at my house. Annnd my baby godbrother was there and he's so sweet and wonderful!! He's 3 =) He calls me sissy =))))
After that, Javi and I went to our friend Taylor's dad's 50th birthday party for a while. Its always nice to see people from high school. Well for me at least. I guess not everyone loved high school as much as I did! Haha!! But it was fun. We ate a bunch and danced a little bit =) "Iiiiiiiiiill be your cryin sholderrrr" Also: drunk old people are hysterical!! leslie Chow and Black Ninja!! Woot!

It was really nice to spend time with Javi this weekend =) He's the greatessstttt <3333333333333333333333333333333333333

And Sean had a big party to end all partieees at xcleanhousex on friday! I had a lot of fun!! Too bad Im almost 20 years old but I still have a curfew! AH!! Hahaa!! It was so fun though, pretty much everyone I care about was there besides my girls from college.
I saw my best friend Alyssa (and we went on a date to elephant bar before the partay!) annnd I saw my best guy friend, Kyle, annnnnd I saw my best girl friend Sara annnnnd I saw my favorite boy everrrr, Javi, annnd I got to see old friends from high school, annnnd Chris and Sean and CHUBBZ! Good deal =)

I love my life, I really do =)

Im sorry I suck at blogging todayyyy, Im so tired and my brain is dead and my eyeballs hurt.
Ok goodnight!!

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Now Playing: If You Have To Ask- Claire Marie Winters
(She's in choir with me and her (original) music is sooo so goooood, find her on myspace DOO ITTTT!!!)

Today was again SO busy. Running around like a crazy person is what college is about I guess though. But the good news is that some deadlines got pushed back, and that took succcch a huge load off my shoulders! Now I can relax this weekend!! I can't wait to go HOOOOOOOME AHH!!!
But today actually wasnt bad!! Especially when classes were finished! Haha! Shelby's mom took Skelly, Kbell, Shelb and I to get manicures and pedicures!! It was soo nice. The massage chairs are like heaven incarnate OMGGGG. I really needed that. Ah! Love!!
And Improv was really funny!! But I only caught the last half of the show because I was at work. But whatever. Work was good too, here is what I learned....
If you want to waist hours of your life being really frustrated, you can play this game (I got to level 7!!)

http://www.addictinggames.com/theworldshardestgame.html =)

Oh and alsoooo, I was researching gangs in LA for this outreach program we're doing in april. Im supposed to plan an activity and a devotion, yikesss. Becoming involved in this was my idea of a way to feel more rooted here. Idk, maybe itll work?? Its gonna be awesome at least. Planning's going well and everyone's really jazzed and we're gonna go to Rosco's Chicken and Waffles!! And paint over graffiti in some inner city areas.
Well anyway, I was researching and I found some really heart wrenching stuff. I read a paper about family life with members of gangs, and I saw pictures of babies laying on the same bed their parents were counting drug money on (guns and drugs all present), and there were pictures of beatings and parties and members shooting up. It broke my heart =/ I really hope we can all learn a lot from this trip and try and find ways to help programs that work with gang prevention.

Im constantly reminded of how lucky I am. I have wonderful parents. I have a good home and great friends. Its crazy to think that it could just as easily have been me born in a gang area or a third world country or something completely different. And think how different out lives would be if that was the case!
Im so thankful for these reminders though, I hope I never take what I have for granted. I mean Im no Rockefeller, but Im so rich in lovvve =) And on top of that, I have a sense of security and safety, and I have resources and support. I mean I am so ridiculously blessed.




My childhood could just as easily looked like this,

What are you gonna do with that??

When talking about degrees, people loooooove to ask the question "what are you gonna do with that?"
Well my faculty advisor, Dr. Samuel Thomas (Yale graduate, featured historian on the History Channel, and Dead Sea Scroll scholar) has a beautiful answer to that ever so annoying question:

"Im becoming a better person. And an interesting one at that."

=)
SO TAKE THAT

I really dont have any qualms about not having my future figured out. I know itll work out. I have faith =)

It's really cool to to have some re-assurance though. Dr. Thomas is the greatest, he's excited about my upcoming trips, and he's totally confident that I don't need to have stuff figured out, his support is really awesome.


In other news:
- Today was crazy and busy and I had no time to breathe, even though wednesday is always my rest!
- I worked for 5 hours today!! (not long in the real world, but SO long in Library Land!!) But I worked with my favorite co-worker tonight and I love my boss, so it was totally fine. We ended up talking about crazy and intense stuff from gay marriage to if hell exists to how weird families are. Hahaha. It was a really good work night. =)
- Im going to Cairo in the fall!!! I can't believe the support Im getting relating to this, Im so blessed!! My parents are always behind me and my friends are excited and understanding, and Javi is just plain amazing. I know it's gonna be hard on us, but in the long run, what's 3 months of the rest of our lives? I love him so much, his support keeps me going, his love makes me stronger.
- So that was my day. The little things make a huge difference =)
- Im soo excited for this weekend, two big parties, which means lots of smiling familiar lovely faces!! And my Oma's 88th birthday party! Yay families (well we'll see how that goes...)

Oh and also, hopefully a lesson was learned today: there are stories one should never put on the internet. Lets all remember we can talk to each other and work things out befooore we go on a rampage that could potentially ruin our closest friends. Okthanksbyyyye.


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Life Goals:

Ive never known what career path to take, or what my future will hold. Ive never had it figured out. But Im begininng to understand that, for me at least, its bigger than anything I thought. Its not about a cubicle and a nice paycheck. Security is nice, but I never want to be too comfortable, what fun is that?

Im not concerned with society's ideas of "success." Im not concerned with wealth really, or fame. I don't care about the status of my job, my title, or my family. I care about people and people's lives, I care about the earth, I care about God's plan for me, I care about good will, I care about art and music and expression. I care about relationships.

I want to really live. I want to feel new and intense and crazy things! I want to experience, I want to learn, I want to meet people, create bonds, share, confront, write, responf. I want to touch lives and make a difference. I want to be filled. I want to see things Ive never heard or dreamed of, I want to hear new sounds, I want to hear complete silence. I want to connect, I want to question, I want to expand, I want to LIVE.


"The longing for paradise is paradise itself." - Kahlil Gibran
"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing." -Helen Keller
"There is only one success - to be able to spend your life in your own way." - Christopher Morley

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If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.

- Emily Dickinson